Honesty In All Things
Being honest with yourself is no easy task for any human being. It’s something I have struggled with my entire life. Who wants to be honest with themselves? So much stimuli to hide behind why entertain honesty if one doesn’t have to go there. But when you are diagnosed with cancer honesty becomes a part of your every day life. Can’t hide behind a positive cancer diagnosis and that’s when I think the change begins, right at the cancer diagnosis. I promise you if ever there was a time I wanted to lie to myself it was my cancer diagnosis day or “D” day as we refer to it. Once you become honest about having cancer everything else in your life has to be honest. Fake lunches with mothers? No time for that…Entertaining friends for the sake of doing the right thing, no time for that either and slowly your world changes and all of the people in it change as well. Getting honest about relationships… I mean let’s be real it’s the one subject no one likes to talk about … taboo. All relationships change after cancer just the way it is. We can no longer make excuses about the people or situations in our lives because now we know the secret … The secret is time is very precious and until you have had a life threatening illness or some come to Jesus awakening you won’t understand the importance and truth of that statement. Time is very precious. I encourage you to sit and think about that for just a moment. How many things or people do you put off until tomorrow? The very ones that mean the world to you because saving face is more important. Think about all of the things you want to change in your life, think about the people that don’t belong there and most importantly think about the people that do belong there. There’s no insurance policy for tomorrow, not for any one of us. Believe it or not time is of the essence. Money well it’s a beautiful thing but money can’t buy away cancer so it’s value for me is now limited. Yes, money is easy to hide behind because of the instant gratification that goes with it … but now that we know the secret we have to be honest about all the things in our life that we aren’t being honest about including the relationships we aren’t being honest about. For me? People have always been the most important thing in my life, maybe it’s just how I was raised, crazy Italian stuff. I don’t want to die without being honest with all of the people that changed my world. I want them to know how much I care about them and how much I love them, I want all of them to know how grateful I am for each and every one of them. I want to say thank you to each of them for sharing their beautiful with me during my lifetime and a thank you for touching my soul.
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